Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Alyssa Vega
Alyssa Vega

Elara Vance is a tech journalist with over a decade of experience covering UK innovation and digital trends, specializing in gadget reviews and startup ecosystems.